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Easter Part 3

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Uncategorized

So tomorrow morning many will be getting up before the sun rises. They will dress their children in their new carefully chosen clothing. The family will look all nice and neat, like they do this every Sunday. Even the ones who do go every Sunday will be dressed in their Easter finest. Everyone will go, pray and worship, it will be a glorious time.

But will we remember the beating? Will we remember how those closest to Him turned their backs on Him? Will we remember that He loved us so much that He laid His life down for us? Will we actually remember what this day is all about?

It took me a long time to actually understand the meaning of Easter. I’m not going to tell no tales, the movie “The Passion of the Christ” really made me understand that day and why we celebrate it.

Every day we can look and see what His death meant for us. We can choose to believe or not believe, we do wrong and He will still stands by our side hoping we will finally choose Him.

It makes me smile just to think about it. Everyday I feel myself growing in with God and His son Jesus. I swear this is a feeling like no other. I know I still have a lot more growing to do but I’m so glad He died on the cross for us so that we all could have a chance to enter into the Kingdom of Heaven.

My Easer Sunday will be spent with my church family and friends. I will enjoy the day and will send a prayer Gods and Jesus way every chance I get because of their selflessness.

I hope you all remember the real reason for the day and have a blessed one.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Right and Wrong Way to be a Christian

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Uncategorized

I’m a bit bothered right now.

I was told that I’m not going about my Christian Journey the correct way. It truly hurt my feelings because I felt as though I was getting closer to God through my reading and writing about him.

I read my bible everyday and then I write about what I’ve read and learned. What’s wrong about that?

I want to be the best Christian my way by Gods way (my husbands words to me). He made me the way I am. I’m quirky, weird, lazy, creative, artistic, emotional, unforgiving of myself, a good friend, a loving wife…. I’m so many things and God makes no mistakes. I know he wants me to work on the lazy thing and not forgiving myself but God has placed me right were He wants me to be in my life.

I don’t pray.

Wait before your mouth drops. I Talk to Jesus and I include His father in the conversation and it’s like one big gab fest, (Even though I need to learn to listen as much as I talk one of my many flaws). I love the relationship I have with Jesus and God. I can’t wait until I have the Holy Spirit and elevate myself to an even higher spiritual plane…

God has a plan for each and every one of our lives. Don’t let anyone or anything take away from what you feel you need to do in order to get closer to God. I’ll pray for the person who made me feel bad about myself, but I will never stop  trying my best to become closer to God.

I love the Lord

Marriage

by deidreswain, posted in Relationship, Uncategorized

This isn’t my first marriage. No secret there.  I refuse to allow my current marriage to end like my first one or to end at all for that matter.

We have both taken a very important step in our life and we did it together, we both got saved together.  It was so beautiful and such a positive turning point in our marriage.  The only negative I have to say is that it makes it really hard to fight with him!! He always says “Deidre, we are better than this”!… I know he’s right but when i’m mad that’s the last thing I want to hear!!

I am currently reading a book about building a a lasting, loving marriage together with Christ. I’m hoping that through this my relationship with God will become stronger and that my relationship with my loving husband will grow even deeper.

I’m enjoying very much what I’m reading and what I have been learning.

Just my thoughts….

My Christian Journey

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

So I’m sitting here with another sinus infection and I’m struggling mentally because I can’t quite seem to figure out what to do with myself.  Then I pick up my phone to read my new YouVersion bible app (it is truly amazing). I’m reading my Joyce Meyer Daily Devotional and today it spoke about relying on God. I do have a really independent spirit and I forget that sometimes all I need to do is stop and listen to what God is trying to tell me and I won’t feel so frustrated all the time.  

My problem is I have no idea what to do with my time during the day, because of the economy a job is forthcoming and then I have Adult ADD so my attention span is very spotty sometimes, so whatever I figure out to do it has to be something that truly fulfills me. 

I’m starting to get the feeling that just allowing God to take over instead of pushing so hard to make something work would be the best thing for me. I want to live the life that God has planned for me, it’s not always easy though because God doesn’t take away our freewill so we always get to do what we want to do, that’s the easy part. Doing the will of God is the hard part.

Has anyone ever had trouble placing their life in Gods hands?

I found my soul mate…

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

I’ve always said that most people never actually end up with their soul mate. For the most part we normally settle for the closes person who fits the description of what we want in a mate. After being married for about 6 years my ex-husband and I realized that we weren’t meant to be together. There wasn’t a lot of bitterness because we both knew this but since we had no one else we just continued to be married. At this time I sat down and made a short list of what was important to me in a man (a very short list, I’m not Chili). Even though I was just getting out of a marriage, I loved being a wife and I knew that’s what wanted for myself. If I dated someone I wanted the man to know (yes I said man) to know what my intentions were.  I wanted a husband. 

I was afraid to date though. I didn’t want to go through a bunch of guys who didn’t know what they wanted or they weren’t ready to settle down.  Plus I’m sort of high maintenance so it was going to take some one extra special to deal with everything that makes up me!  I had grown up alot ,seen some things in life and knew that the usual didn’t work for me.  Luckily for me someone else was looking for that exact same thing.

My husband is my soul mate. I went around the world and back (literally), just to come back and find a country man from a small town named Childersburg.  My husband is a firm believer in if I’m not happy then he isnt either. His goals are focused on making a better life for our family and nothing more. He is man enough to stand up to peer pressure when he’s called “whipped”. I love being a wife to him, I cant start or end my day without thanking God for bringing and keeping this man I my life. We pray together, laugh together, cry together… doing anything apart is not an option for us because in our eyes that leads to the creation of space between us. We have made our dreams and goals one, so that we can always be on the same page going in the same direction.

I could go on and on about our relationship and our live for each other.  But its not necessart . Soul mates don’t have to tell the world how much they love each other we show it.  The respect we have for each other and our relationship says it all. God blessed me with my soul mate.

Focus

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

Whenever I go to sleep at night I always have these grand plans on what I will do the next day…

My thoughts are filled with all the goals I will finally accomplish, the things that will get cleaned and those little errands that will finally get done.

Then the day comes and I just can’t seem to bring myself to get anything done.. this is the bane of my existence.. I have no focus. I am a forever procrastinator.

Is there a pill for this?

Some classes I can take?…

I guess that would only work if I actually got up and went to them…

 

 

 

When I FINALLY grow up!!

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

So this summer I turned 30….and I realized that I have this seriously long list of things that I wish to accomplish. One of the main things (and yes this is very vain) I wish to be is a Socialite… I know crazy.  I want to be a trendsetter for all of the right reasons, like because I worked in a soup kitchen, started a charity or did something good.  You would think people would want to be more positive than negative with their actions in life. But I won’t be bothered with them because I can only control the things that I do!!