Month: April 2013

Let he without sin cast the first stone John 8:7

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

Breathe Deidre, Breathe…..

My post get posted on Facebook. Some of my church members read it. I know how word gets out about things but I’ve decided the most important thing for me is to be pray get my answers from God and to be true to myself. Always. No matter what because I like who I have become as a woman. So with that being said I’m about to go against something I know we have all been taught.

Only one person who ever walked this Earth lived without sin, that was Jesus Christ.

Everyday we have thoughts we can’t always control. Even though we pray about a situation and go back and think about it, we are committing a sin. Looking at a cute guy, a sin. Talking about someone, a sin. Little white lies, a sin. Telling people you love them and really don’t, a sin. Gossip, a sin.

Think of the images you see on TV everyday, think about the emotions they invoke in us, sometimes it makes not like a character and talk about how much we dislike them. Sin.

So can we actually live without sin? What about the times that the emotions are so built up in us that things we wouldn’t normally say in our Christian state comes out?

I am very guilty of this and this is why I say God isn’t through with me yet. I ask for His forgiveness and pray that if ever in that situation again I will do things differently. (I do have a bit of a temper problem, I blame it on my dad).

We live in a world today where I completely understand that sometimes it’s better to walk alone than in a crowd. But we all make mistakes from time to time no one is perfect past, present or future.

It scares me because I don’t think I will ever be that perfect. I don’t think I wil every be that good. I wonder wil me trying the best that I can still get me into the Kingdom or Heaven or am I just a lost cause. I’m quite sure I’m not the only who feels that way.

No one can say what God’s “criteria” will be when we get the the Holy Gates. I know and I’ve read that it’s not the works we do that gets us into Heaven it’s by our Faith.

I’m not saying go out and do whatever it is you want to do. But when you keep your Faith you keep the things that you feel please God close to your heart. You may fall but get back up. God’s watching.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Love

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Relationship

I don’t really talk much about my relationship.

It’s because I’m so in love that I quite put it into words. My husband is the most wonderful man I have ever known. I truly love him.

So who’s rib was I made from? I’ve been married before and I’ve been in other relationships before. So with that being said who was the one I was meant to be connected to?

I realize how differently my relationship is so different from other relationships that I see and I always wonder is mine good different or bad different?

Since our relationship started with us being together 24/7, we rarely do anything without the other. My husband opens doors for me all the time, I mean all the time. I don’t take out trash, do any yard work, my car is always washed and most importantly he tries to understand my emotional needs. (You know as women we are very complex).

My life with my husband is beautiful, and spiritual. Of course we have disagreements like any other couple but we try to not let it go on too long.(I get mad extremely). He is so easy going with a real easy going nature, while I’m going through the house yelling at the top of my lungs. (That’s me and I’m working on it)

I’m in love, but it makes me wonder am I his rib? Did I pick the wrong husband the first time and then God stepped in and pointed me in the direction that I should go in?

I believe so because we are equally yoked, which is the most important thing. The one for us is out there unless God designed it for us to be alone for His glory (or because you have issues and can’t keep a man.

There is nothing wrong with love, but not only are we suppose to have unconditional love for those closes to us but also to one another. Love actually makes the world go round (I know it also makes some people crazy). Love is what God wants us to show each other. We love saying it but do we actually mean it?

I believe we should start learning in loving each other more than ever know. The world today is filled with such hate and turmoil that this is the only thing that we can do to fix ii.

So love one another.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Music

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Uncategorized

Something has been strongly on my mind today… music.

If you know me, then you know that I love music. All types as long as it has a melody I can find something about it that I enjoy. Don’t even get my started on a nice drum or guitar rift…

But in my spiritual walk, I’ve been told that I can’t listen to the music that I once listened to. Is this right or wrong?

Now everyone knows that music is universal. It transcends color lines, economic status, and cultures. So when it comes to secular music vs. gospel music what is more important, the point that it is sung by a none gospel artist, that it isn’t in the gospel music genre, or is it more about the lyrical content?

To me music is more about lyrical content then anything else. I know many people will and can dispute this, but please think before you speak.

I like music that has a conscious message. I don’t really care who sings it or what genre it comes from. I love music that opens my eyes to the world. Do you remember John Lennon song “Imagine”? That song is absolutely amazing!!

To me it speaks to a christians heart, but of course this isn’t considered a Christian song now is it?
Do you realize how many songs Michael Jackson did that had messages behind them? Here’s one line everyone should remember “If you can’t feed your baby, then don’t have a baby”, so simple.

But yet I’m told that this type of music isn’t pleasing to Gods ears.

Once again I’m trying to become the best christian that I can be, but since I’ve started on this journey I’ve come to realize that some things that I used to think doesn’t sit well with me anymore. It doesn’t go with the things I’ve had conversations with Jesus and God about.

The music thing is big on my list because it is something that is important to me, when I’m happy, sad, or even mad, music has a way of making me see things that I didn’t see before I heard certain song. I love the way some songs make me think outside of myself or they make me feel like I can be more than I am. Music does that for me.

God places things, people, and situations in our lives to teach us things. We are not all reached by God the same way. He reaches us however and wherever He can. Maybe music and writing is the way He reaches me.

Who knows? What do you think?

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Life

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

Easter is over and now the pretty dresses and suits have been put away to come again on Mother’s Day when Mother’s all over the world beg their sons and daughters to come to church with them.

But I digress.

So I’m not just a spiritual person (or trying my hardest to be). I live life. A real one with real problems.

I don’t try to run or hide from them, I do pray about them and hope that I hear the answer that God gives me, even though sometimes I don’t (I’m not the best listener).

My question is how do you know that you are doing what God wants you to do? How do you know the things you say are right? How do you know that God actually wanted you in the place you work or the career you are in? Seriously how do you know? Is it because it feels right to you? Is it because you prayed and you “felt” that God had answered your prayers?

If you are broke, and you find $20 on the ground is that money God wanted you to have or did you just pick up something that someone else had dropped? Does that make it yours? Did God want that person to drop their hard earned money so you could pick it up and swear it was a blessing?

Now I’ve done things like that before so I’m not judging anyone. I know that I struggle with my wants and Gods wants. I never know how well I’m actually listening to myself because I want it so bad or if He is actually telling me this is what I should be doing.

I was told that this early in my spiritual world that I shouldn’t be blogging. I beg to differ, it could be because this is what I want or maybe God wants be to write so I will never forget my journey.

Today I found my bucket list from 2012. I only had 4 items on it. One of them was to have a blog and be consistent. I’m finally doing what I prayed I would do it and feel good about everything I’m writing.

I think I am accomplishing that and that God wanted me to do that at the right moment in my life.

So is God actually talking to you or do you only think you hear him.