Author: deidreswain

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Friendship

by deidreswain, posted in Living Life

No words can describe the smile that I have on my face right now.

In the past week, I’ve spoken with a few on my friends who no matter the distance, have always been there for me.

It made me feel good because these are people who I have meet at various points in my life and for some reason they continued to stick around and care about me no matter what or how far I got from them. I love the feeling that it has given me, to be able to pick up and speak like no time has passed.

Friendship is a funny thing. So people are really good at it and others are not. Some people mean well and others…. well let’s just say we have all ran into “that” friend before.

I’ve always considered myself to be a good and a bad friend. My good parts? I’m extremely loyal. If I’ve called a good friend, you can always count on me. My bad parts? I’m not good at calling even when I’m thinking of you and I won’t always come to you when I’m going through things. But even with my faults I know that to have a good friend you have to be a good friend also.

So since 2013 is the year to work on the things I see wrong with myself (since I have already learned to value my opinion of myself over anyone else’s) I plan on being a better friend to those whom I care about. Not everyone gets this big eclectic group of friends that I have collected from all walks of life and from all parts of the world and trust some of them are some characters but they have some of the biggest shoulders a girl could ask for.

I don’t have to name names because you all know that I’m speaking of you and you should know how much I value your friendship. Love you guys lots.

Peace and Love
Deidre

Back in the Habit

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

I’ve been M.I.A for awhile, had to take some time to get back to being me.

It’s hard when someone wants you one way and you think that it’s the right way to go but you realize that when you look in the mirror and don’t recognize yourself, something has to change.

So I’m not going to get into some long post tonight just something to exercise my fingers a bit and get me back in the habit of writing and loving it.

Be Blessed,

 

Let he without sin cast the first stone John 8:7

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

Breathe Deidre, Breathe…..

My post get posted on Facebook. Some of my church members read it. I know how word gets out about things but I’ve decided the most important thing for me is to be pray get my answers from God and to be true to myself. Always. No matter what because I like who I have become as a woman. So with that being said I’m about to go against something I know we have all been taught.

Only one person who ever walked this Earth lived without sin, that was Jesus Christ.

Everyday we have thoughts we can’t always control. Even though we pray about a situation and go back and think about it, we are committing a sin. Looking at a cute guy, a sin. Talking about someone, a sin. Little white lies, a sin. Telling people you love them and really don’t, a sin. Gossip, a sin.

Think of the images you see on TV everyday, think about the emotions they invoke in us, sometimes it makes not like a character and talk about how much we dislike them. Sin.

So can we actually live without sin? What about the times that the emotions are so built up in us that things we wouldn’t normally say in our Christian state comes out?

I am very guilty of this and this is why I say God isn’t through with me yet. I ask for His forgiveness and pray that if ever in that situation again I will do things differently. (I do have a bit of a temper problem, I blame it on my dad).

We live in a world today where I completely understand that sometimes it’s better to walk alone than in a crowd. But we all make mistakes from time to time no one is perfect past, present or future.

It scares me because I don’t think I will ever be that perfect. I don’t think I wil every be that good. I wonder wil me trying the best that I can still get me into the Kingdom or Heaven or am I just a lost cause. I’m quite sure I’m not the only who feels that way.

No one can say what God’s “criteria” will be when we get the the Holy Gates. I know and I’ve read that it’s not the works we do that gets us into Heaven it’s by our Faith.

I’m not saying go out and do whatever it is you want to do. But when you keep your Faith you keep the things that you feel please God close to your heart. You may fall but get back up. God’s watching.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Love

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Relationship

I don’t really talk much about my relationship.

It’s because I’m so in love that I quite put it into words. My husband is the most wonderful man I have ever known. I truly love him.

So who’s rib was I made from? I’ve been married before and I’ve been in other relationships before. So with that being said who was the one I was meant to be connected to?

I realize how differently my relationship is so different from other relationships that I see and I always wonder is mine good different or bad different?

Since our relationship started with us being together 24/7, we rarely do anything without the other. My husband opens doors for me all the time, I mean all the time. I don’t take out trash, do any yard work, my car is always washed and most importantly he tries to understand my emotional needs. (You know as women we are very complex).

My life with my husband is beautiful, and spiritual. Of course we have disagreements like any other couple but we try to not let it go on too long.(I get mad extremely). He is so easy going with a real easy going nature, while I’m going through the house yelling at the top of my lungs. (That’s me and I’m working on it)

I’m in love, but it makes me wonder am I his rib? Did I pick the wrong husband the first time and then God stepped in and pointed me in the direction that I should go in?

I believe so because we are equally yoked, which is the most important thing. The one for us is out there unless God designed it for us to be alone for His glory (or because you have issues and can’t keep a man.

There is nothing wrong with love, but not only are we suppose to have unconditional love for those closes to us but also to one another. Love actually makes the world go round (I know it also makes some people crazy). Love is what God wants us to show each other. We love saying it but do we actually mean it?

I believe we should start learning in loving each other more than ever know. The world today is filled with such hate and turmoil that this is the only thing that we can do to fix ii.

So love one another.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Music

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Uncategorized

Something has been strongly on my mind today… music.

If you know me, then you know that I love music. All types as long as it has a melody I can find something about it that I enjoy. Don’t even get my started on a nice drum or guitar rift…

But in my spiritual walk, I’ve been told that I can’t listen to the music that I once listened to. Is this right or wrong?

Now everyone knows that music is universal. It transcends color lines, economic status, and cultures. So when it comes to secular music vs. gospel music what is more important, the point that it is sung by a none gospel artist, that it isn’t in the gospel music genre, or is it more about the lyrical content?

To me music is more about lyrical content then anything else. I know many people will and can dispute this, but please think before you speak.

I like music that has a conscious message. I don’t really care who sings it or what genre it comes from. I love music that opens my eyes to the world. Do you remember John Lennon song “Imagine”? That song is absolutely amazing!!

To me it speaks to a christians heart, but of course this isn’t considered a Christian song now is it?
Do you realize how many songs Michael Jackson did that had messages behind them? Here’s one line everyone should remember “If you can’t feed your baby, then don’t have a baby”, so simple.

But yet I’m told that this type of music isn’t pleasing to Gods ears.

Once again I’m trying to become the best christian that I can be, but since I’ve started on this journey I’ve come to realize that some things that I used to think doesn’t sit well with me anymore. It doesn’t go with the things I’ve had conversations with Jesus and God about.

The music thing is big on my list because it is something that is important to me, when I’m happy, sad, or even mad, music has a way of making me see things that I didn’t see before I heard certain song. I love the way some songs make me think outside of myself or they make me feel like I can be more than I am. Music does that for me.

God places things, people, and situations in our lives to teach us things. We are not all reached by God the same way. He reaches us however and wherever He can. Maybe music and writing is the way He reaches me.

Who knows? What do you think?

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Life

by deidreswain, posted in Uncategorized

Easter is over and now the pretty dresses and suits have been put away to come again on Mother’s Day when Mother’s all over the world beg their sons and daughters to come to church with them.

But I digress.

So I’m not just a spiritual person (or trying my hardest to be). I live life. A real one with real problems.

I don’t try to run or hide from them, I do pray about them and hope that I hear the answer that God gives me, even though sometimes I don’t (I’m not the best listener).

My question is how do you know that you are doing what God wants you to do? How do you know the things you say are right? How do you know that God actually wanted you in the place you work or the career you are in? Seriously how do you know? Is it because it feels right to you? Is it because you prayed and you “felt” that God had answered your prayers?

If you are broke, and you find $20 on the ground is that money God wanted you to have or did you just pick up something that someone else had dropped? Does that make it yours? Did God want that person to drop their hard earned money so you could pick it up and swear it was a blessing?

Now I’ve done things like that before so I’m not judging anyone. I know that I struggle with my wants and Gods wants. I never know how well I’m actually listening to myself because I want it so bad or if He is actually telling me this is what I should be doing.

I was told that this early in my spiritual world that I shouldn’t be blogging. I beg to differ, it could be because this is what I want or maybe God wants be to write so I will never forget my journey.

Today I found my bucket list from 2012. I only had 4 items on it. One of them was to have a blog and be consistent. I’m finally doing what I prayed I would do it and feel good about everything I’m writing.

I think I am accomplishing that and that God wanted me to do that at the right moment in my life.

So is God actually talking to you or do you only think you hear him.

Easter Part 3

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Uncategorized

So tomorrow morning many will be getting up before the sun rises. They will dress their children in their new carefully chosen clothing. The family will look all nice and neat, like they do this every Sunday. Even the ones who do go every Sunday will be dressed in their Easter finest. Everyone will go, pray and worship, it will be a glorious time.

But will we remember the beating? Will we remember how those closest to Him turned their backs on Him? Will we remember that He loved us so much that He laid His life down for us? Will we actually remember what this day is all about?

It took me a long time to actually understand the meaning of Easter. I’m not going to tell no tales, the movie “The Passion of the Christ” really made me understand that day and why we celebrate it.

Every day we can look and see what His death meant for us. We can choose to believe or not believe, we do wrong and He will still stands by our side hoping we will finally choose Him.

It makes me smile just to think about it. Everyday I feel myself growing in with God and His son Jesus. I swear this is a feeling like no other. I know I still have a lot more growing to do but I’m so glad He died on the cross for us so that we all could have a chance to enter into the Kingdom of Heaven.

My Easer Sunday will be spent with my church family and friends. I will enjoy the day and will send a prayer Gods and Jesus way every chance I get because of their selflessness.

I hope you all remember the real reason for the day and have a blessed one.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Hope (A quick short post)

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey

There is still hope for this world. We aren’t all bad.

When Pope Francis washed the feet of child inmates this proved that there are still people who have the humility to do something like that. It made my heart swell with pride although I’m not Catholic, you can’t ignore what something like that means.

Peace and Love,
Deidre

Right and Wrong Way to be a Christian

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey, Uncategorized

I’m a bit bothered right now.

I was told that I’m not going about my Christian Journey the correct way. It truly hurt my feelings because I felt as though I was getting closer to God through my reading and writing about him.

I read my bible everyday and then I write about what I’ve read and learned. What’s wrong about that?

I want to be the best Christian my way by Gods way (my husbands words to me). He made me the way I am. I’m quirky, weird, lazy, creative, artistic, emotional, unforgiving of myself, a good friend, a loving wife…. I’m so many things and God makes no mistakes. I know he wants me to work on the lazy thing and not forgiving myself but God has placed me right were He wants me to be in my life.

I don’t pray.

Wait before your mouth drops. I Talk to Jesus and I include His father in the conversation and it’s like one big gab fest, (Even though I need to learn to listen as much as I talk one of my many flaws). I love the relationship I have with Jesus and God. I can’t wait until I have the Holy Spirit and elevate myself to an even higher spiritual plane…

God has a plan for each and every one of our lives. Don’t let anyone or anything take away from what you feel you need to do in order to get closer to God. I’ll pray for the person who made me feel bad about myself, but I will never stop  trying my best to become closer to God.

I love the Lord

Easter Part. 2

by deidreswain, posted in My Christian Journey

So part 2 of my Easter blog was interrupted yesterday but I’m quite sure you understand why.

While enjoying my Saturday, the husband and I decided to watch “The Passion of The Christ” and as usual, I couldn’t make it through the whole movie without a face full of tears.

There are a lot about this movie that stands out, but this one time I watched it I paid more attention was as the chief priests were making their case against Christ was the reaction of the crowd and how they jumped on the bandwagon to condemn a man that I’m sure many didn’t know except my word of mouth.

That got me to thinking. How often do we jump on a bandwagon without knowing all the facts? How often do we look at someone differently for a mistake they made without knowing all the facts?

I have a saying in life “The only that separates you and someone in jail is one bad decision”.

But people love jumping on and condemning someone without all the facts. Case in point, lets all go back to civics class, there are three branches of government: Legislative, Judicial and Executive. Our fore fathers designed it this way as a form of checks and balances so that no one would have all the power you know like the POTUS. So guess who makes the laws? The Legislative branch and then who signs it? The POTUS, know with knowing all the facts who is really responsible for the economy? Go ahead let it sink in, I’ll wait.

That is just one example that really gets under my skin when we blame the POTUS for all of our countries problems and I can’t really talk because I used to blame Bush when now I see that he was just the pen.

But back to our subject, Matthew 7:1-2 says: Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgement you judge, you will be judged and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you.

So those that were in the crowd yelling Jesus crucifixion, can you imagine some of the things that had done? and there they were wanting someone to be killed!! and these were His own  people!!

They thought what was the popular thing to do was the right thing to do. How often do we see that today? How often do we do what the majority is doing just because? Although being different is in, but if everyone is different doesn’t that make them all the same? (Food for thought)

So what I’m trying to say is think before  you condemn, walk a mile in someones shoes before you judge. Think about yourself in that situation before you put someone down. Like the saying goes you never know when you’re entertaining one of God’s Angels.

***(Disclaimer)***

Please know that I am very new in my Christian journey.  If you see anything that isn’t correct or something you don’t agree with let’s talk about it. I love learning new point of views from other people. I want to know the correct way instead of thinking I’m right. I’m not perfect and God isn’t through with me yet.