Life

Easter is over and now the pretty dresses and suits have been put away to come again on Mother’s Day when Mother’s all over the world beg their sons and daughters to come to church with them.

But I digress.

So I’m not just a spiritual person (or trying my hardest to be). I live life. A real one with real problems.

I don’t try to run or hide from them, I do pray about them and hope that I hear the answer that God gives me, even though sometimes I don’t (I’m not the best listener).

My question is how do you know that you are doing what God wants you to do? How do you know the things you say are right? How do you know that God actually wanted you in the place you work or the career you are in? Seriously how do you know? Is it because it feels right to you? Is it because you prayed and you “felt” that God had answered your prayers?

If you are broke, and you find $20 on the ground is that money God wanted you to have or did you just pick up something that someone else had dropped? Does that make it yours? Did God want that person to drop their hard earned money so you could pick it up and swear it was a blessing?

Now I’ve done things like that before so I’m not judging anyone. I know that I struggle with my wants and Gods wants. I never know how well I’m actually listening to myself because I want it so bad or if He is actually telling me this is what I should be doing.

I was told that this early in my spiritual world that I shouldn’t be blogging. I beg to differ, it could be because this is what I want or maybe God wants be to write so I will never forget my journey.

Today I found my bucket list from 2012. I only had 4 items on it. One of them was to have a blog and be consistent. I’m finally doing what I prayed I would do it and feel good about everything I’m writing.

I think I am accomplishing that and that God wanted me to do that at the right moment in my life.

So is God actually talking to you or do you only think you hear him.