Living and loving in Utopia….

Yeah! Two post in one night!!

Anyway I swear this confederate flag thing came out of no where.

I may not have always lived in Alabama but I was brought up very open parents so nothing was new to me and they made sure I had an open mind about everything.

When I was going to high school there were plenty of buys in their big pick up truck with confederate flags in the back windows.  I never once got the vibe or feeling that it was anything more than a decoration in their truck.

In my opinion the Confederate flag is not about people still believing in slavery.  First of all I’m quite sure some black people can actually carry the Confederate flag because they did fight for the South in the Civil War, the ancestors of these people should be proud of that.

If others think that the Confederate flag is about slavery then that is totally your opinion. My opinion is that people were may not have agreed with the war but they were proud of their ancestors that answered the call to fight for the South.

I saw a video of some young black juveniles jumping out of cars and tearing a Confederate flag down from the front of someones house… If they had have gotten shot, there would have been an outrage but come one people. We have lived with this flag for centuries and the FLAG has never killed anyone.

FYI: They are actually thinking of changing the Alabama State flag because it resembles the Confederate flag.  That is just plan dumb because seriously does it bother you that much?

Don’t judge people because of what they do or like. Let’s learn to be good humans to other humans.

Peace and Love,

Deidre

They saying goes “one bad apple doesn’t spoil the bunch”… well it may not spoil the bunch but it does put a damper on things.

This weekend someone posted on Facebook that they were going to shoot up the Riverwalk in our town.  I thought it was just talk until I found it actually happened.

Montgomery has worked hard to make downtown a nice place and to invite more businesses in. The history in the Montgomery area is astonishing and it deserves to be seen and heard.

They even built a huge outside Amphitheater so that we can attract musical acts and maybe get know for the place to through concerts.  We already have the talent and this will just really put us on the map.

Because of one/group of people wanting to be stupid all of that can come crashing down.

My idea of how to fix it is very simple: STOP BEING STUPID.

What happened to a good old fashioned fist fight? Or as shocking as this may be walking away?  If we keep going down the path we are on now. No one will have anything.

Peace and Love.

Deidre

While everyone has been out celebrating the 4th of July I was getting used to being back at home after spending an entire 7 days in the hospital.

It was nothing like I expected. For one the surgery I had (a myomectomy) wasn’t the first one I’ve had but the first I’ve had in this country, so I really didn’t know what to expect.  I must say I really like the hospitals in the states…:).  The one thing that made me feel that I was in good hands was before the surgery as I sat in my pre-opt room, the doctor came and said before we started doing anything he want to pray over everything we were doing.  I immediately felt better and I since I believe God gives our doctors the sense to use in all of our different situations, I was glad God was their in the room.

So now I’m home after spending almost an entire 7 days in the hospital.  I’m glad to be home. I had gotten away from my anxiety medication although I did use it a few time in the hospital but not everyday and I was sleeping somewhat without sleeping pills.

I hope this is a turn in the battle for my health because I was already getting one the work out track. This is one of the things that needed to be done but just wouldn’t be done until it was absolutely necessary. In my case when the pain came.

I’m doing better just trying to get my energy back up and focus on me getting better and learning from my past.  I have to be a good girl and not try to move so fast and let my body heal. I have to keep strong with this remember that this was done for my better good.  I believe that and I’m holding on to that because as you all may know I can be a scatter brain.

So I’m just going to take on projects to improve my home and settle into that so that I can allow myself to heal without putting too much on myself.

I’m also learning that I’m married and although true enough I can do it for myself… sometimes letting your significant other take care of you is the most important thing you can do for a relationship. I hope I’m learning and I will always remember to do what is right in my relationships.

But I am doing well, mending although I’m deeply concerned about my mental health the jury is still out on that one.

Peace and Love

Deide

There is something to really learning about yourself….

So I know my personality really, really, really well.  I would now like ordan myself “Queen of Overdo and Analyzation”.  That’s just who I am and the way I like things.  In doing that though I tend to overdo everything. The worst thing I have this with is researching an issue or problem. 

So as everyone should know hubby and I are trying to expand our family.  So because it wasn’t happening fast enough for me I decided to go on fertility pills. That doesn’t sound too bad right? No like I said I over analyze so you know my research of this was done well. Although I knew of the side effects, I could care less.  I just wanted the end result.

Well because I am who I am of couse, I get every side effect they have to the fertility pills. So now I’m sitting here at the hospital because I have leaking cyst on my ovaries.. they hurt and are causing all types of other issues.  Now to be perfectly honest with you, I should have know this could happen even though the probability was less than 10%. Some how I’m always in that group.

This a setback for me, and yes I have been overdoing on the research and over analyzing how this will affect my baby making plans, but I see a lesson in the whole thing. Maybe everything isn’t meant for me to understand, do or figure out…. I’m learning. Slowly, but I’m learning.
Peace and Love,

Deidre

  

Have you ever done something once and wanted to do it again but because it didn’t turn out too well the first time you are nervous about doing it again?

Well as I’m not afraid to say I’ve been married once.  During my marriage, we renewed our vows somewhere between our 2nd and 3rd year of marriage. Was it a mistake? I can’t really say because truthfully neither of us took it seriously and we were still doing wrong and of course we still ended up divorced.

Now I am married to the man of my dreams, the man that I believe God sent for me. I just had to go through with what I had to do to get to him. God wanted me completely prepared for this marriage in every way. (I still have my ways that aren’t too pretty but God isn’t through with me yet).

Next year 2016 on a beautiful Saturday we will celebrate our five year anniversary.  When we got married neither one of our parents, brothers or sisters where there. We had my family, cousins, but none of his. Now with what I’ve been through should I go through this again? Should I renew my vows, epsecially after what happened to me in my first marriage?

I know this is a different man, a different marriage, and just a different situation period, but I can’t help but to think that the reason we learn lessons is so we can do things differently.

So would you renew you vows? I would love for us to share our love with our families, but is it doing the same thing again?

Peace and Love,

Deidre