I have an anxiety disorder… which is really just a fancy way of saying that I’m high strung and hard to calm down sometimes. So when I’m put in situations which I can control or I haven’t planned, my thought process has a tendency to go overboard and I become consumed with thoughts of the situation. Trust me it isn’t a pretty sight.
I am frustrated with this because I hate roadblocks! This is another one that I have to overcome in order to become the best child of God that I can become. How is it that i’m suppose to be able to have this unwavering faith when I seem to fall apart when things don’t go as I would have them planned? I try and stay strong, planted and rooted in the knowledge of God’s word that He will never forsake me and that His promises are true.
I pray and I know I will have to continue to pray harder everyday because I can’t let this beat me. God gave me this because He knew I was strong enough to overcome. (I will have to share later why and how I know this is true). I just can’t get so down on myself when the grip that I think that I have starts to loosen. I mean no one is strong everyday.
It is totally okay not to be perfect. Throw caution to the wind and live the best life for you. Have that unwavering faith in God that as long as you live as He has you to live, He will never leave you hanging.
Unwavering Outcast
Peace and Love,
Deidre
Living and loving in Utopia.... 