I’m getting this one up early because I am determined to be in bed and sleep no later than 8:30pm.
If you have read any of my blogs you know that I suffer from extreme insomnia, and if you don’t know just ask my car which I have run into the house twice while in a foggy mind frame.
Sleep is very important to the body which I have found out the hard way, but this blog is not about that tonight.
So as you all may know I TRY and do things in my church that glorify. I love God and this is what we are supposed to do. The reason why try is in bold letters is because I live about 45 minutes away from my church so it isn’t always the most convenient place to go at a moments notice.
So being as last night was one of those nights were I got no sleep and still had things to do during the day sleep was out of the question. So my intentions were to pick up my bonus son (which I did), go over homework (test tomorrow and I believe strongly in schoolwork), and feed him dinner (all done). Now I might add that his test worksheet was with his mother so I had to meet up with her to get it.
By the time all of this is done I’m completely exhausted. I haven’t slept all day and although I’m good for the drive down, the one back is the one was mostly concerned with especially since I wouldn’t be alone. I had another life to look out for.
So the hubby puts his foot down and says he doesn’t trust that I have enough energy for the task at hand.
But my intentions were to go and help the children prepare for their Easter Celebration. Now I feel like I have good intentions but I didn’t follow through. So which is better wanting to do something or actually doing is regardless of the circumstances?
I believe my health and the welfare of my family comes first and I’m quite sure many of you agree. But when do we push ourselves beyond to make sure our intentions turn into results?
I trust God whole heartedly, but he is trying to show me something with this insomnia thing. I believe that.
My intentions are always good no matter how they start out. So charge it to my head and not to my heart. I will always do what I can.