Living and loving in Utopia….

First of all let me start off by saying I really need to put more pics on my blog.  That will be my goal in the next upcoming weeks, I’m going to try and remember to alway have my camera with me and to actually use it to record moments in my life not just the important ones but the small ones also.

But anyway next Thursday is my wedding anniversary, hopefully I will be fully recovered from my root canal so I can fully enjoy the night, because my husband and I are so busy we forgot to let the people he has his trucking contract with know that he wouldn’t be there but it’s okay, we can take that L because we celebrate our love for each other everyday. Our anniversary is really just the time to be extremely silly with each other. I can’t wait!

We went through a lot towards the end of last year, and it literally last maybe 60-90 days and after that it was like it never happened and we literally moved on from it like it was a bad dream.

I’m glad my husband and I were both brought up as fighters. We fight for what we believe in and we believed in our love so since we were both fighting for the same thing, we were an unstoppable force.

Love is in the air and it’s beautiful.

Peace and love,

Deidre

In the past, I have been very hard on myself because of past youthful mistakes I’ve made.  I never ever considered what I went through as a “testimony”.  I always thought of it as my badge of shame.  Until I met a young lady who has been in my life for only a short time and I realized that I have something to share for the next generation.  This gave me a feeling of empowerment because for so long I hid from it and thought I had the scarlet letter A across my forehead. This young lady has taken to me and listened to my stories and is really trying to stay off the path I took in life. I know she isn’t going to do everything perfect and she is still going to make some of the same mistakes I did but at least she will have something I didn’t, a non judgmental ear that will listen and someone who will always be there for her.

I always wonder why I’m here sometimes, what’s my purpose but I’m beginning to see that things happen very much so for a reason. There were times when I wanted to die, and I don’t mean saying it in my head but actually trying to end my life. I know that some people call that cowardly but when you can’t see beyond your hurt and pain you think that not being in this world is better than anything.  I’m not going to lie and say these thoughts don’t occasionally still pop up in my head, I’ve just learned to deal with them better.

But for the young lady in my life who is also my personal assistant, I’m going to make sure that I pass the lessons on that I’ve learned and help her grow to be the best woman that she can be and guess what? It’s making me a better me also.

Peace and Love,

Deidre

So it’s been about 4 years since I’ve had voice lessons.  Tomorrow I start back.  I am so nervous and excited all at the same time.  I have big plans for the year huge actually.  When everything is said and done I want to try everything my heart and head tell me to do. I’ve already proved that I have a head for business and that I’m a strong woman.  This year I’m moving like a hurricane because nothing will stand in my way to get to where I plan to be.

Here are a few of my goals:

Reality TV Show

Write a Made for tv Movie or Play

Get our independent Record Label up and running

Put out and independent album, without any big label help

As you can see I don’t dream or have small goals. I’m going for the gusto! LOL  You only live once so why not dream big and do it big? 2015 I found myself although I started this journey working on myself since I divorced my first husband.  I have learned so much about myself over the last 6 years, but really in the last year I found me and I found my voice.  I found the part of me that makes me the best me. I’ve always known that my story, my life would have meaning. My voice will be heard and people will know me.

Peace and Love,

Deidre

I can’t believe we are two months into the New Year and I am blogging for the first time!  I must say so far this year I feel God’s blessing raining down on me. I said in my last post I was like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, and I feel it now more than ever. I know everything in life will never be perfect but right now for me things are good, better than good great.

I have finally figured out how to really find and spot friends and I am so grateful for the ones I have, they have really showed me what true friends are. I found friends where I never expected to find them.

I’m so giddy with happiness I don’t want to make anyone sick because I know life is up and down, but right now I’m going to enjoy my good times and know that life is what it is.

Peace and Love,

Deidre

Like a Phoenix I rose from the ash and dirt during my very worse…

Can anyone believe that today is December 30th! I am so excited and sad. This year has taught me so many things and just pushed me to be more true to myself than ever and I LOVE IT!

Things don’t always happen the way we want them to but they work out just the way they should because there’s always a lesson or something of value in every situation.

I’ve made friends that I didn’t think I would make but I did and I’m happy about the family I’ve made.

I know the boat can get rocky but as long as I don’t bail out. I know everything will be fine.

HAPPY NEW YEARS 2015!!

I got some new Rachel Ray cookware because I realized during Thanksgiving that I didn’t quite have all the pots and pans that I wanted and I kept having to put things in bowls and wash them out. I forgot that I’m suppose to have two sets. So I went out and bought me another one so I wouldn’t get caught with my pants down again.

The Rachel Ray set has gotten great reviews and I hope it lives up to the hype!

I’m finally loving this skin… They say you are better in your 30’s and I believe them!

I hope everyone enjoyed the start of the holiday season with your loved ones.

Love is such a beautiful thing even though it can get crazy and messy, but where would we be without it?

Peace and Love,
Deidre

I am re-reading ” The Purpose Driven Life” for what seems like the millionth time. All the times I’ve read it I either not finished or didn’t get anything out of it. I know where I stumbling so I guess it wasn’t the books fault it was mine. I read the first page of the first chapter and never before did I realize what the words where saying on the page. First of all, the book doesn’t promise that you will find yourself, or any of that other self help things that is probably expected.  The book lets you know up front that it’s going to show you Gods purpose for your life. Which is what I want because I know it’s more than me and more than I can ever imagine to be. Although I still have big dreams for life, I know that living my purpose will bring all things that God has promised His children and I for one don’t want to miss out on anything.

peace and love,
Deidre